Can you see the me?

Can you see me?
Can you see what I do? Can you truely see what i'm up against?
Often it feels like others don't see ME. Everyone knows my routine in life. School, work, kids, etc... but what people seem to often forget is how hard it really all is.  People seem to think that if I read a book or two and then attend all my classes and clinicals that i'm now ready for it all in the nursing field. There is now no reason for me to be concerned/scared about my future b/c I've learn it all already. What they are forgetting is this major part of learning on the job. Nursing school has given me the basics, the basics only. Nursing school has shown me once or twice the nursing skills needed. The rest is on the job! I don't deny that i've learn a great deal about the human race, body and mind. However, like everyone else I still need that vital on the job training. I wish that finace knew that I wan't above that, that I need that also.  I am sick of finace and some others telling me that i'm in a sad/bad mood. BE SIMPLY IN MY SHOES FOR ONCE! Who can be happy all the time? I know of no one!
I wish that people knew that I work, go to school, help others when I can, take care of Steve-o and have kids. When I am suppose to have time for me? I don't assume anytime really! There are weekends that are free, few and far between,even though I often am busy the next day.  Bottom line is, i'm stressed, i'm tired and i'm not in the best of moods all the time.(though you'll often find a smile on my face) I have a job that in the past i've learned alot from. I work with a great great great group of physicians, however the rest of my co-workers and managment(mostly management) are trying to get rid of me b/c of my schooling. My work is no longer a happy place for me to be with now adds to my stressors on a daily basis. I am unwanted and ppl are always against me there, going against deals made (such as working around my schooling)  Breakdown: M, T and Thur i am in school all day long. Thur I have to drive to Fort Akinson(sp) for class. Then on Wed and Fri I have to work 10 hr days. (well we all know if i'm not a fan of my work place right now, why would I like being there for 10 hours) Then my oldest has girlscouts, both girls have soccer, soccer practice and games on weekends. Finally I have team meetings for Steve-o, car hunting for me (I sold my other car in hopes to find a van to support a bigger family) and planning a wedding now( which is the least of my stressors), and finally other family private illnesses/issues that are going on.
Now....why am I am in a sad/bad mood sometimes? Why am I not on top of it all? Read above: I'M TRYIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!