Today I had our family pictures taken by a local photographer! She's great. Kristaroderphotogrhapy.com is where you'll find her! K, that's my marketing skills for the day. So as prepping before pictures seems to ALWAYS go, I was left feeling like I have booked the WORST possible thing ever!! The girls are running around, no one is listening. I'm combing hair and they are screaming as if I was chopping their heads off (comb went right thru also, which as some of you may know, means there werent' any freakin' tangles) Anyways, finally i'm able to do some own hair/make-up when the BF says, "should we iron their shirts?" Well to be honest he was right, we should! I just didn't have time, didn't think about it until he said something. I should say it's not like these shirts were old and wrinkely, they were new and had those fresh new wrinkle to them. He ironed them for me b/c I think he FINALLY sensed that perhaps I was getting stressed. Steve-o was coming to the pictures and had put on a write t-shirt WITH WRITING on it under the nice white buttom up he was going to wear (we all wore white). Needless to say you could see all that writing..so there I am telling him how to change it around, while doing my hair, taking girls shirts off to be ironed and the BF is saying "Couldn't we have taken our own pictures?, I think i'm only doing this once." AAAAHHHHHHH!!!! Sometimes I wonder about men. I really don't think my little Nikon camera is going to take the same pictures that this PHOTOGRAPHER is going to take! Anyways, it all turned out and everyone ofcourse ended up happy that we did it. What they seem to have forgotten is the stress/hell they had to put me in just to get to that point.
Like sand through the hour glass, so are the days of MY life!
Saturday, August 29, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
Turkeys in my yard
I've decided to make a list of highlights in my life!
-The girls (daughters)
-The BF
-My Dad (And he's a whole other blog....trust me)
-Label maker. Yes, I have one and i love love love it! I've been labeling EVERYTHING and I recommend this for everyone! Makes life easier, especially when the schools for you kids send home these silly lists of things they NEED to have (ie: wipes, baggies,,etc..) See i understand pencils, markers,etc.. but I don't understand buying their cleaning supplies or storage materials! I'd rather just give them $50 a year and let the teachers get what they want/need!
-Dog (PJ is her name. She's an odd one! She can jump HIGH HIGH and won't ever leave my side!)
-LPN Lic
-Friends (I have such great great friends! Most the time i feel bad that I can't attend all the events/bdays,etc... I feel bad that I can't call them often. You knw they are good friends when you can go weeks/months w/o talking to them and when you do see them it's like there was no distance at all. Someday I dream of having more time. Just need to get a house, RN degree and organized!
-Bf's family (They are great. They've accepted the girls, myself and my brother. I couldn't ask for a better family to becoming apart of and somday (if he EVER gets a freakin ring) hehehe, they will be my family! :)
-My job (I know, why is that a highlight? It is and it isn't! I like MOST of the people I work with. Some ofcourse I think the world could do w/o (trust me,we could), but i've made some good friends. I work w/good Doctors who care about the staff. I am most of time happy and having a good time at work. I guess thus far, i've picked a good career path. The only thing that will make it better is when i'm practicing as a nurse!)
-Steve-o (oh yes, you thought i'd not add him aft. yesterday! He's a highlight. I think we can learn alot from people like Steve. He cherishes the small things while we take them for granted! )
-Mom (I know..HUH? But you never lose that mother/daughter bond. I think she's a strong person. I like the drive she has. I just don't agree with her actions. She's good with advice.)
-bonfires/boating/beaches/Wii (I don't get to do these all too often and NO I don't own a boat. But sometimes I get the chance to be on one and I LOVE IT! Bonfires are a must have in the Spring/Fall in Wisco. Soo much fun getting friends/family together. Making smores, telling stories. My girls love them also. Beaches, I just love water in general. A pool would do also! And finally Wii. Why did I pick a video game to be a hightlight? Well b/c it's something the BF loves to do. It's something that my girls will enjoy in the cold Winter's here and most importantly, we all do it together!
-Family time/Family dinners (As time goes by I am realizing the importance in having meals together. Spending more and more time together. I want my girls to have dinners everynight or most nights at the table with us. A perfect night is when, no one comes to our door unexpectedly, we are eating together, talking about our days and then we play a game with girls, read to them and put them to bed. PERFECT!!!
WAIT WAIT WAIT...SIDE NOTE: I just looked out my window and there are TURKEYS in my yard, in my driveway! OMG, they are sooo cute! I ran outside a minute ago to take pictures (my camera and I are addicted to eachother), my dog got outside and those turkeys went flying and running fast, making their cute little turkey noice! WOW, that was pretty neat!
-The girls (daughters)
-The BF
-My Dad (And he's a whole other blog....trust me)
-Label maker. Yes, I have one and i love love love it! I've been labeling EVERYTHING and I recommend this for everyone! Makes life easier, especially when the schools for you kids send home these silly lists of things they NEED to have (ie: wipes, baggies,,etc..) See i understand pencils, markers,etc.. but I don't understand buying their cleaning supplies or storage materials! I'd rather just give them $50 a year and let the teachers get what they want/need!
-Dog (PJ is her name. She's an odd one! She can jump HIGH HIGH and won't ever leave my side!)
-LPN Lic
-Friends (I have such great great friends! Most the time i feel bad that I can't attend all the events/bdays,etc... I feel bad that I can't call them often. You knw they are good friends when you can go weeks/months w/o talking to them and when you do see them it's like there was no distance at all. Someday I dream of having more time. Just need to get a house, RN degree and organized!
-Bf's family (They are great. They've accepted the girls, myself and my brother. I couldn't ask for a better family to becoming apart of and somday (if he EVER gets a freakin ring) hehehe, they will be my family! :)
-My job (I know, why is that a highlight? It is and it isn't! I like MOST of the people I work with. Some ofcourse I think the world could do w/o (trust me,we could), but i've made some good friends. I work w/good Doctors who care about the staff. I am most of time happy and having a good time at work. I guess thus far, i've picked a good career path. The only thing that will make it better is when i'm practicing as a nurse!)
-Steve-o (oh yes, you thought i'd not add him aft. yesterday! He's a highlight. I think we can learn alot from people like Steve. He cherishes the small things while we take them for granted! )
-Mom (I know..HUH? But you never lose that mother/daughter bond. I think she's a strong person. I like the drive she has. I just don't agree with her actions. She's good with advice.)
-bonfires/boating/beaches/Wii (I don't get to do these all too often and NO I don't own a boat. But sometimes I get the chance to be on one and I LOVE IT! Bonfires are a must have in the Spring/Fall in Wisco. Soo much fun getting friends/family together. Making smores, telling stories. My girls love them also. Beaches, I just love water in general. A pool would do also! And finally Wii. Why did I pick a video game to be a hightlight? Well b/c it's something the BF loves to do. It's something that my girls will enjoy in the cold Winter's here and most importantly, we all do it together!
-Family time/Family dinners (As time goes by I am realizing the importance in having meals together. Spending more and more time together. I want my girls to have dinners everynight or most nights at the table with us. A perfect night is when, no one comes to our door unexpectedly, we are eating together, talking about our days and then we play a game with girls, read to them and put them to bed. PERFECT!!!
WAIT WAIT WAIT...SIDE NOTE: I just looked out my window and there are TURKEYS in my yard, in my driveway! OMG, they are sooo cute! I ran outside a minute ago to take pictures (my camera and I are addicted to eachother), my dog got outside and those turkeys went flying and running fast, making their cute little turkey noice! WOW, that was pretty neat!
Thursday, August 27, 2009
A new STEREO?
Let's start with the basics. I am a single mother of two little girls, I work part-time while I attend Nursing school. I have a boyfriend FINALLY, that's good for me! We've been dating for almost 2yrs. I know, some of you are thinking, "that's it, 2yrs, what is she bragging about?" Well, pay attention and you'll find out! Thus far i'm sure my life doesn't sound too much different than others, these days at least. But here's the kicker, I also take care of my Developmentally Disabled brother. He lives with me, my girls and my boyfriend. One might think "oh her parents must have passed away, poor thing." NO, they are BOTH still very much alive. 3.5 years ago my Mother decided to end her Special Ed Teacher career and MOVE to California to pursue Law. Yes, there was a man there that she had liked, at the time, that she lived/lives with! My Father, he lives in the same town we do. However, my parents divorced when I was 5 and my Brother 2yrs old. My Dad, b/c my Mom wouldn't allow, only saw us everyother weekend and we always lived 30min. away. Meaning it was hard for him to get to every event, every meetin,etc,...for my brother. Now ofcourse I can't say that some of this isn't his fault. It was only 30min, but if you knew my Mother you'd understand and i'm sure there is more to this story than even I know! Back to the situation, she moved and I took over! I've alway resented her for this and I always will. I told her that if she passed away i'd take him, NOT IF SHE MOVED!
What goes along with my Brother is a team of people whom work for State agencies to help provide services for him. I hire them and then we meet as much as we need to so that his life remains stable and he doesn't fall thru and cracks in the system (there are always cracks). Steve is my Brother's name (everyone else will remain nameless)and he's 24 yrs old. He's great, he's perfect and he's my hero. However, THIS IS SOOO HARD TO DO! There are day, such as today, that I want to throw in the towel with him. It gets to be too much. No one understands but the team. My Dad doesn't get it, My Mom is no help at all (even over the phone she makes things worse it seems b/c she doesn't have to directly deal with things anymore), so that leaves me and my boyfriend (who's learning the ropes of all this...see why I can brag about this man? This BF?)
Today Steve decided that he' stereo in his car didn't work. Yes, he has a car. Two years ago I worked hard, he worked harder, to get his lic. (learned to read, took at the legal tests and we hired a instructor, he DID IT. I cried that day when he got his lic. out of being proud) Anyways, the stereo was old and the car is just as old, 1997 Ford! However, i'm in charge of his financies b/c he has no clue on money, savings, bills,etc.. There are laws I have to follow also with this financies (none at which say he can't buy a stereo, but you get it) Sooooo today Stever drove to BB(Best Buy) and told them he'd be back to get a stereo put in. HE ORDERED A STEREO!!!! I'm proud of him for being independent, however he doesn't have the money for that. Steve's on a budget bi-weekly b/c of his horrible spending habits and we save money for repairs, gas, etc... on his car! (remember, repairs doesn't mean new stereo, it's a 1997 FORD) I knew the day was going to be a bad one. Steve has a hard time taking "no" for anything! I knew that if I let him spend his budgeted monies on this he'd be broke for two weeks. Then during those two weeks he'd be complaining and having possible tantrums( those can be pretty bad at times). I barely have time to eat (heck my boyfriend says i'm the fastest eater he's every seen), I certainly don't have time for tantrums. Oh I should say, all this went down while I sat in AP2 in another town for Nursing for FIVE hours! I only got to talk to Steve on breaks!
I ended up writing an email to the team, they contacted Steve and somewhere along the line (at 430pm a whole day's worth) they got thru to him. He canceled his stereo and was willing to get it as a present for his Bday!
I"m sure none of this sounds too bad to many. Here's the thing, i'm stressed! I'm 28 (almost), I have two kids, i'm trying sooo hard to better myself and yet I want to run away from everything. I find myself wishing I had the heart to throw in that towel on Steve! When situations like today's or worse (they can get worse) occur it's not easy. He's yelling, i'm trying to stay calm and explain all while attending a class, working or taking care of my kids...in the end i'm always left crying, feeling sorry for myself (which I hate doing)
So today I decided that maybe writing out my feelings, good or bad, would help me! It feels like i'm talking to someone and who knows, maybe I am!
What goes along with my Brother is a team of people whom work for State agencies to help provide services for him. I hire them and then we meet as much as we need to so that his life remains stable and he doesn't fall thru and cracks in the system (there are always cracks). Steve is my Brother's name (everyone else will remain nameless)and he's 24 yrs old. He's great, he's perfect and he's my hero. However, THIS IS SOOO HARD TO DO! There are day, such as today, that I want to throw in the towel with him. It gets to be too much. No one understands but the team. My Dad doesn't get it, My Mom is no help at all (even over the phone she makes things worse it seems b/c she doesn't have to directly deal with things anymore), so that leaves me and my boyfriend (who's learning the ropes of all this...see why I can brag about this man? This BF?)
Today Steve decided that he' stereo in his car didn't work. Yes, he has a car. Two years ago I worked hard, he worked harder, to get his lic. (learned to read, took at the legal tests and we hired a instructor, he DID IT. I cried that day when he got his lic. out of being proud) Anyways, the stereo was old and the car is just as old, 1997 Ford! However, i'm in charge of his financies b/c he has no clue on money, savings, bills,etc.. There are laws I have to follow also with this financies (none at which say he can't buy a stereo, but you get it) Sooooo today Stever drove to BB(Best Buy) and told them he'd be back to get a stereo put in. HE ORDERED A STEREO!!!! I'm proud of him for being independent, however he doesn't have the money for that. Steve's on a budget bi-weekly b/c of his horrible spending habits and we save money for repairs, gas, etc... on his car! (remember, repairs doesn't mean new stereo, it's a 1997 FORD) I knew the day was going to be a bad one. Steve has a hard time taking "no" for anything! I knew that if I let him spend his budgeted monies on this he'd be broke for two weeks. Then during those two weeks he'd be complaining and having possible tantrums( those can be pretty bad at times). I barely have time to eat (heck my boyfriend says i'm the fastest eater he's every seen), I certainly don't have time for tantrums. Oh I should say, all this went down while I sat in AP2 in another town for Nursing for FIVE hours! I only got to talk to Steve on breaks!
I ended up writing an email to the team, they contacted Steve and somewhere along the line (at 430pm a whole day's worth) they got thru to him. He canceled his stereo and was willing to get it as a present for his Bday!
I"m sure none of this sounds too bad to many. Here's the thing, i'm stressed! I'm 28 (almost), I have two kids, i'm trying sooo hard to better myself and yet I want to run away from everything. I find myself wishing I had the heart to throw in that towel on Steve! When situations like today's or worse (they can get worse) occur it's not easy. He's yelling, i'm trying to stay calm and explain all while attending a class, working or taking care of my kids...in the end i'm always left crying, feeling sorry for myself (which I hate doing)
So today I decided that maybe writing out my feelings, good or bad, would help me! It feels like i'm talking to someone and who knows, maybe I am!
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